My Mind Is Hellz Bellz

My Mind Is Hells Bells, So...this is my mind. This is how it works and this is what it contains...
It is in fact a dark, dreary, and cold place...simply weird. I don't know many people who would want to know a person like me nor do I believe I belong here in this world we call "HOME".
If you don't know me, and that should be the majority of you, then this should be interesting...If you think you know me, well...I trust that you are going to find many things that you never knew about me. Happy reading.

In my opinion I find people to see me as quiet and shy (obviously) and maybe the odd one. There are lots of words I could use, such as, strange and ignorant...perhaps even looby. For anyone who doesn't know what looby means, its an awkward, clumsy and lazy fellow. I've been called awkward before and the feeling it produces hurts more than the word itself sounds. Excuse me for being a dark, sensitive and deep individual, for I am and all I can be is me. How can I explain who I am and what I'm about to anyone when all I think about is how they take it and what they register me as in their minds, afraid to be an outcast for much longer, not wanting to be alone but instead wanting those around me to be happy with me and befriend me without faking it. Yet, I still wonder at times if they truly like me or if they would just like me to leave.